Bittertea

10 km. ..... half way

2009-06-07T21:59:00.002+08:00

I managed to get through to 10 km in a little more than an hour today ..

was good progress as I just started to push myself a week ago but its really tough.... My heart is able to acclimatise but the problem is the knees and thigh muscles .. takes 2 days at least to recover when i hit new distance ...

Hope fully I'll be able to hit 14 km by the end of this week and 18 km the end of next . After that i'll have to let altitude at Mount KK to take care of the rest.

I really respect those who can make it for 42 km full marathon. It doesnt matter how long you take to finish that.. even if you can walk for that far I take my hats off for ya.

.. I might have to crawl the last few KM of the 21 and hope i Finish within 3 hrs ...

Damn....

12 April 2009 - KKB and Kinabalu

2009-04-12T18:53:00.002+08:00

Went for the 2nd round of my Kuala Kubu Bharu water rafting trip few weeks back. It was quite a fast one with just less than 3 weeks of asking around and getting people. Managed around 10 people this time which was a nice number for a good 2 raft. Just the right number.

I've went to Kuala Kubu Bharu last October and the water levels were low. It was fun still. However this time the water levels were awesome. For those who didn't go for it this time, they've all just missed one hell of a ride. The 1st Canyon and 3rd Canyons became so much more different from the last time I went. Has can attest to this too as she was with the group that went in October '08. One word sums it all up. Awesome. This trip made me sign up mentally straight away for Sg. Singor when the next one comes around - it was unfortunate that the May '09 trip to singor was full. End of the year will be water rafting and camping at NEPAL if Rizal manages to get it going in September or October. I've practically signed up verbally for it.

Anyway although i didnt get to go Sg. Singor this year, I've managed to sign up for Mount Kinabalu this June. All thanks and hats off to RJ for letting me in on his group due to a pull-out.
Hope I'm lucky and the weather would be a good one for a climb all the way up to the top. Now I just have to scavenge and borrow for winter clothing. Anyone can spare please let me know :)
Just paid for the flight tickets to KK and now the only thing left is to submit my leave applications on Monday.

16 March 2009

2009-03-16T20:52:00.002+08:00

I feel quite comfortable knowing that no one comes to my blog to read. I can write calmer in this way maybe though I feel that I do not have much to share anyway.

I believe that what they say is true. The more you earn the more wants that you think you need and the more what your drawing down every month does not seem enough..

I've more or less decided that Bangkok would be the place I would like to visit this year though I have yet to make any plans to book any tickets or accomodation. I think that since I'm going to be going alone I can just hop on the next plane out of there the month itself that I would be having my compulsory week-long leave , though it might be a bit expensive to do that. But anyway it should be ok. I shouldn't start to plan until someone tells me they aren't following anyway. So i'll just wait for a while and do some researching for the moment.

I need a camera and a travel bag. I am not sure if I should buy them or just borrow them from people as this isn't like the start of a for-certain-more-to-come-adventurous-future for me. Though I hope it would, sometimes it isnt wise to spend too much preparing for a hobby that is expensive. I still have quite some nagging problems that I can only settle by July, thats eating a bit on my money, but my situation is definitely better than the past 1 and a half years.

I'm quite eager for this month end's trip to KKB to happen soon. I look forward to experiencing the place with higher water levels. My first time there was nice but nothing spectacular cos the levels were quite low due to sudden dry weather. Finger's crossed that this time would be better.

I still remember a someone who told me before that blogging is kind of stupid, telling ppl how you feel and all. But I think its quite therapeutic to do this, and its harmless. You don't eat up people's time and people who read tend to listen. The downside is of course, you don't get to choose your listeners. But mine is ok. Its deserted enough for me to feel very comfortable.

7th March 2009

2009-03-07T13:47:00.002+08:00

Its 2009 March already.. a quarter of the year. So damn fast..

Work has been going fine at the moment and I've been quite lucky. Just wondering how long the luck would last.

The past 3 months have been quite a difficult time with many things to think about. Outside of work life has just been.. stagnant .. maybe to the point of going backwards a bit.

I guess sometimes when i look around .. the people who know me the most and understand me turns out to be those who i know relatively most recently. I cant help but have the feeling that only a handful of those who I've know since school days actually understand me...

Maybe I changed.. or maybe I didn't change and became stagnant. Or maybe everybody just has their own worries and problems and we just shut ourselves off from trying to know people. Just trying to find someone to release all our problems into and just hope they would listen and we dont have to listen back.

Or maybe I am just quite such a boring person that out of work I don't have anything to look forward to - no outings, no activities, no trips - just simply because I cant find anyone to agree to do anything with.

I sometimes try too hard to help people's lives (non-family) who I feel that I care about - maybe they just don't need it or don't want it. Maybe I'm just trying too hard about it. In the end maybe what someone said was true, that it can only hurt myself.

I guess life is to be lived for myself at the moment. I'm gonna just try to live for myself until someone wants to live for me I guess. I'm just so very tired. I just want to live for myself now that I have some small means for doing so.

I realize more and more that its just not worth it to be nice to people who take you for granted when you are nice to them. Its just ironic that the majority of your friends, the people who value your friendship the most, are the ones that you get to know so recently. Or maybe my life is just that sad and the problem is with me and not others. I don't know. I just want to live and breath for myself now.

Gonna register for the wall climbing package I've always said I would do... Gonna get my passport made and pick a place to back pack alone, to hell with whether anyone is interested in following or not. My life is not to be wasted to wallow at loneliness.

I take solace in knowing that I still have people who know who I am and how I am other than just my name, where i come from and superficial things. I take solace in knowing that they know the kind of person I really am and cherish what we do and how we understand each other and how our every conversation and outing makes us understand and share each other's problems and joys and success and failures better. To the people who know me like that and in which I am priviledged to know them for their stories, I feel it is the most satisfying of all.

Its the feeling of being true.

6th July 2008 ... one year absence

2008-07-06T10:38:00.002+08:00

Hi... I dont think anyone comes here anymore :P. Last time was i think when RJ and Has stumbled to this place through God knows wut links and read my blog. Among my frens from tcb i think both of them are the only ones to have read this blog and posts haha..

My last post was more than a year ago i think (didnt really go and check the date la ok? hit me haha) so today on a Sunday morning which I have nothing nothing to do and feeling a bit GNF ( I think you buggers, especially u Lemak would know wat it means) I decided to revisit this place and clean it up...

I deleted all my ignorant, immature, stupid, idiotic blue-balled comments on topics such as politics,etc and just left those that are about my own thoughts on life and funny things. Who gives a shit what i write on "mature" topics anyway :P. You can get most of it on newspapers and other better written political and economic blogs also.

I dont know if I will continue to write. Dont think so also la unless i got some funny story to share.. but no one comes here anyways adi also i think. ...

I re-read some of my posts though and I seriously couldnt believe it was me writing those things ... and most of the time at 3 to 5 am in the morning afte Mahjong haha (I FUCKING MISS MAHJONG!!!)

The iPhone.. @ Macworld

2007-03-08T10:03:00.000+08:00

The line was very stable around 5 in the morning so I decided to stream some videos to watch and I thought I would go look for some trailers at Apple.com. But instead i stumbled upon Steve Job's keynote address earlier this year at Macworld and proceeded to stream it.

and my God was the presentation exciting.... it made me want to own an iPhone instantly, though i dont think i would be able to afford one and also because it wont reach Asia until 2008, by which millions would have already owned one.

My limited intelligence noticed 2 very obvious things from the keynote. One was definitely that the iPhone is really cool.

The second point is, Steve Job's is really one uber marketing man. He could sell u a kitchen sink and still make it look like its the most revolutionary and amazing thing to ever happen since ur mother started to cook. Although it helps to have wonderfully designed products, but the guy really can sell stuff. You would suck each and everyword he says. Just look at the keynote address for yourself.

They should show his presentations in Marketing class. Definite.

Major Overhaul...

2007-01-10T16:26:00.000+08:00

It's been quite some time, and I've been procastinating (is that how its spelt??) for quite some time now to embark on an overhaul of my page. Well its nothing new, just a change of colour, fonts and templates.

Well, maybe this time I'll change the contents a bit, maybe a bit darker, harsher, more critique. Of course i know that some opinions, like mine may not matter but, hey its just like us normally chating, crapping about life, situations and criticising people while having a drink at 'siang malam' or any road site stall. Its just doing it on cyberspace.

It've been wanting to have a place to air my greivances for some time now. Been talking to Weihan to create a new place but guess we both have been busy or for some reason it didnt take off. So I decided why make a new one when I can use this. Even better I'll use my real name instead of a pseydonym or something like that.

Well maybe I'll be able to finish the overhaul and come up with the first post this weekend. In the mean time I have to update the links list. Found a lot of interesting sites these past few days.

Moon Cake Festival at Carpenter Street

2006-10-31T05:51:00.000+08:00

These are pictures taken at Carpenter Street, Kuching during the eve of the Moon Cake Festival. All the pictures were taken with my handphone, hence the low quality (wish i had a DSLR... keep that in mind for my birthday present) and were resized to fit the blog. If not it would have taken some serious download times. If you want the full size pics, just drop me a message.

There was a small orchestra playing some classical chinese music there, and it was nice. At one time they even played the "Wong Fei Hung" theme =). It made me reminiscence of the days we used to play the song for the Scouts Band in school. But of course we played with bagpipes and side drums and bugles instead.

Alrite, if you guys (or girls.. ahem) out there wanna know about the girl above, it will cost you RM 10 for each question. Hahaha.. Just joking. You know i'm a sucker for cashing in on stuff like this. Actually she's a friend, who's a year junior and her name is Chelsea. This was a candid pic. But if u still wanna know more about her, remember,
RM 10 hahaha.

Above, Patricia, a coursemate of mine. By the way boys, she's taken, got a bf adi in kl, so go back to bed.

A shot of the street. Notice the silly girl trying to dance in the lower left of the pic?

Another shot of the street...

And another....

And another...

The archway. Entrance to Carpenter Street.

I failed miserably.. HAHAHA

2006-10-21T07:24:00.000+08:00

It was the last class of the semester before the study breaks. Coincidentally, today's class was also the type of subject that I am poorest at and least interested in. ANyway, I did not collect my mid-term exam paper last week when everone else got it from the lecturer, so I collected it this week. And, to cut a long story short, I lived up to my own expectations :). I failed the paper miserably ahahha!!!
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Okay I understand some of you may be having question marks all over your heads or a crow just flew over the screen, but before you start calling me crazy or anything, let me tell you that i really expected myself to fail. I got 8 points out of a possible 30 hahahaha!!!. I honestly smiled and laughed my way out of the class. Well, why did I act like that you may ask??
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To be honest, in hindsight, I am feeling scared because even if i add up my assignment and presentation marks, its very clear that with my carry marks, I have yet to pass. I'm seriously scared that I would fail. But on the other hand, I smiled and was walking with a bit of a skip in my steps because... in the end I can fail. I proved those that did not believe that I can fail wrong, and I showed that my luck does run out. I've always said that I'm just normal and I am. Though it's scary that I have yet to pass the exam. Imagine, i've got only 8 out of a possible 30 marks for my mid-term, there's no guarantee that wont happen again in the finals.
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IF THAT HAPPENS IT MEANS I HAVE TO EXTEND MY STUDIES FOR A SEMESTER! ahhhhh!!!.... thats SCARY!!
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But yet, in the end, I'm still smiling =)

Just a teaser.. nothing special..

2006-09-30T13:30:00.000+08:00

Well its been quite some time since i've posted anything. There are 2 reasons for that. ONe is the normal writer's block where i ran out of interesting things in life to write about, well you can't blame me for lacking an adventurous side. I don't have the financial means to pursue such a life you know. Besides, its kinda nice sometimes to just relax and let life pass by. Secondly, i've been busy with my final year thesis. Well, actually, the reason i'm so busy with it is because the deadline is near and i've been slacking off more than i've ever been since i came into university. Yea yea.. i'm to blame for it.

Well, today i'm gonna post something that is very very uninteresting to all of you. Its the list of animes that I would like to watch. I would not list out the animes that I would like to own because the number of titles for that would be infinite. Yea i know i know, not many people can understand my obsession with anime and even more would not understand the choices of animes that i hold in high regard or i'm interested in. To me anime is not just entertainment or for kids. Anime is for me a form of art that is equal to films and books. Hence, that is why i feel agitated most of the time when i hear someone saying that they are 'cartoons'. To me, the term 'cartoons' are degrading to anime. Maybe i'll make a post to decribe the diffences in 'cartoons' and 'anime' by using examples from my little experiences of watching both 'cartoons' and 'anime'. Well, to make it very damn simple, 'cartoons' are mindless animated shows made by US production companies. 'Animes' are an art form depicting a story.

Well, yes, i agree that not all 'cartoons' produced in the US are mindless, but i dont consider them cartoons. I consider them animation, and the last US production of an animation that i deem worth watching ( excluding 3D animation, which are not 'cartoons' too) are the Matrix animation series, and before that 'The Lion King' which are both years apart. SOme of you may ask, wuts the difference between 'The Lion King' and lets say, "Cow and Chicken". Well there are obvious differences and i'll cover it sometime in the future.

Alrite, back to my original intent today. I actually managed to watch Shin Seiki Evangelion ( english translation: Neon Genesis Evangelion) and the End of Evangelion movie a few weeks back after waiting and searching in vain for numerous years. Well, I asked my friend to download the thing because i assured him it was damn worth it. To me it was superbly fucking damn worth it but... unfortunately my friend chastised the show in the end because i guess it wasn't suited to his taste. But wat the heck! I dont care because i loved it. Evangelion is the kind of anime that has the classic you either love/hate thing i guess. You either love it or you dont understand the end and you end up hating it. I of course loved it and its my Third most favourite anime in my list. Unfortunately Evangelion is just one in a long line of animes that I would want to watch.. So.. i'll list out some of the ones that I hope to watch in the near future, though they are arranged in no particular order and the list is by no means exhaustive.

Super Dimensional Fortress Macross (Yea I saw it when i was a kid, but i wanna watch it again!)
Rurouni Kenshin - Reminiscence (DO NOT REFER TO IT AS Samurai X!!!)
Haibane Renmei
Full Moon wo Sagashite
Fruits Basket
Furi Kuri (or alternatively FLCL)
Kumo no Mukou Yakusoku no Basho (Place Promised in Our Early Days) first priority!!
Rebuild of Evangelion (NOt yet released, haha. Basically an Evangelion Remake)
Trigun
RaXephon
Vision of Escaflowne

Well the above is not much, because most of the animes that i wanna watch i've been able to watch them for the past 2 years!! HAHAHAHAHAH ... so its trimmed down a lot. But if your talking about the ones i would like to COLLECT!! wooo hooo.. its never ending..

Part 2 of Rantings and Answers

2006-09-19T06:42:00.000+08:00

2) "what kind of girl i would create to be with me if i ever had the chance"?? wwuuuuuTTT???!!!

A Few days ago, I was talking to a girl on MSN. And she asked me.. what kind of girls do i like actually. OKay.. before I continue on, lets do a flash back and see how I met this girl. The parts coloured and in italic are the flashback parts

During my practical period in KL , a close friend of mine Girl M, introduced me to her best friend Girl A, with the intent of helping me to find someone haha. Well this finding someone thing i'll leave it for another day and another time to talk about k?. Back to the flashback - I met Girl A the first time at KLCC Kinokuniya when the three of us went out. She was really pretty.. Real nice girl.. After the first 2 times I instinctively knew that she was a good girl.

But somehow, I noticed that she wasnt the girl I was looking for. So I told my friend Girl M, intro her to another one of our friend la.. cos somehow i think they would both make a nice couple =).

-Flashback ended-

Okay FINE! I know that wasnt much of a flashback, was just trying to make things interesting =P. So i had a chat on MSN with girl A and she asked me wut kind of girl that I was looking for.

Then.. after thinking a while I told her.. that i was lookin for a girl who is (in no particular order or priority)

--- Quick-Witted --- Fast at catching things -- Intelligent (I dont mean grades, i mean naturally intelligent type) ----comfortable speaking either Hokkien/Cantonese + English --- outgoing, though not too much---feisty (yea i know, its crazy rite?) ---- mature when it matters-----understanding-- can rationalize but can let go and go crazy too --- thrifty----humble---- and most importantly KIND and NOT EVIL.

Girl A then asked me, did Girl M knew about all that criteria before she introduced me to her?.. Cos she said she isnt someone like that. Well... I dont know... But i'm not here to talk about that today.

Wut i actually want to talk about, are the criterias. HEHE.. a lof of people, after i told them of the criterias would say that i'm crazy and that i'm too picky myself. Sigh.. I have to agree to a certain extent that I am..

ANd I perfectly know and realize that I DON'T HAVE SUCH QUALIFICATIONS TO BE SO PICKY!.. but you cant blame a guy for seeing too far into the future rite?? sigh.... maybe thats something bad about me when setting these criterias. I set too far into the future. But what i want to clarify is gonna be explained below.

I told Girl A, that the criterias are just things written on paper or spouted out by my mouth. I wont follow those things strictly. Its impossible to find someone who fits that bill -(and even if I do, 9999 out of 10000 that girl will never like a guy like me). Right?? of course its right!

I'm just looking for someone who I could feel that 5 or 6 years ahead, I would still want to be with her and could still share a lot of things with her. The criterias dont mean fucking shit.. except for the Kind and NOT Evil part haha =). Which sane guy would want an evil and black hearted girl rite?

My friend once told me, "Dont think so much!.. Kau first then onli slow slow cook the feeling" ... Well, i really wish that I could hahah!... even if i could really brave myself to "court" the girl, I would definitely not be able to overcome the slow slow cook part. LOL.

Then.... one day I was watching Neon Genesis Evangelion.
Which I saw one of the characters in it, and she reminded me of the very girl that would suit my description. The name of the characer was Sohryu Asuka Langley

Well... She fit most of the first part of the description. Feisty, intelligent, quick-witted, fast at catching things. But she lacked the end parts of humble, kind, mature, etc. HAHAHA. but the fight in her is wut attracts me.

I think in my life, i've met quite a few people with the remaining characteristics that Asuka didnt have. But out of the many, only one made a special impression. She was the kind of girl that deep down i was looking for i guess. The moment i knew her was the moment that i knew wat kind of girl i was looking for, and wat virtues and values that really mattered to me. But thats over now haha..... to clear the air i'm still alone and i didnt really go after the girl. Impossible i guess. If you wanna know why i dont go after girls, head HERE
for an old post and scroll down to The Reason For Not Going......(Tuesday, June 14 2005 entry)

Well... if you've read till here, you may think that i'm writing stupid and silly stuff. And I agree with you fully =) gahahaha.

If i could create one... it would be a combination of Asuka and that girl. but... The last word is... I dont care about the criterias that i say i look for.. its all bullshit... IF the person comes along.. then she comes along =). It doesnt matter what her character is as long as she's a good person and i like her. And thats a fact!

What a silly post this is rite?? the confessionals of a lonely boy hahaha. Hope you readers had fun. hehe

Rantings and answers. Part 1

2006-09-19T04:16:00.000+08:00

The clock on my computer is 5.42 am. Nope, it's not set to U.S Eastern Time. The digital clock is working perfectly.

I'm still sitting in front of my computer and still awake with a cup of coffee and some pastry - definitely not fresh - that I bought from 7 Eleven a while ago.

It has been like that since 2 weeks ago. "What the fuck are you doing?" you may ask. =) I'm asking that question to myself too. It seems that I just cant stop looking for things to read - and unfortunately I dont consider my academic books or journals as reading material- hence, for the past week or so I've been spending the bulk of my time watching anime, reading tons of things on Wikipedia and downloading Neon Genesis Evangelion fan-fictions to read.

I just finished around 70% of what I should prepare for my group presentation this Wednesday, which is just 24 hours away. And I have tons of other stuff to do.. sigh.

1) I have 2 chapters of my Final Year Thesis to finish in a fucking short 96 hours, which I dont have much of fucking idea how to.

2) I promised to help a friend do a first time grammar check on his Final Year Thesis, which I hope I can help with in the limited time frame.

3) I need to finish up some reports to hand up this Friday which is long overdue due to certain circumstances which, I admit, I have been part of the reason and I hope the lecturer doesnt kill me.

4) I need to prepare for the presentation this Wednesday, which is on a fucking morning. I dont know about you guys but most of the time I just hate waking up on mornings.

Sigh.. and I'm having a writer's block for this blog =)

Well.. this time i'll try to write something. As usual this is gonna be boring, cos it's about a boring guy ranting and grumbling. SO BEWARE AND DONT SCROLL DOWN IF U GET BORED EASILY.

1) Being ... Humble...

Ya know, not to say that I'm perasan or wut but... I've been praised and commented a few times by people that I'm humble. Hmm... was talking to a friend (if ur reading, u know who it would be =). Hint: pretty earings - they suit you very well and u look good wearing that outfit.. dont get angry ya? You know me, i'm an Idiot.) outside another friend's house last nite.

She commented on something, i forgot wat it is, that I'm just being humble..She isnt the first one to say that mind you, a few have said it before. Well.. i then explained to her that i'm not actually Maybe its just that I dont have anything to boast about. I'm not an angel or a gentleman entirely.

If i had the looks of another friend and the brains of another one of my friends here, maybe I would be boastful ya know. But i dont have both of it, so maybe that is why i cant boast =).Buy it? or dont buy it?.... Some of you may remember the ME in f1,2 and 3. I was a pretty big boaster at that time wasnt I? Haha.

But seriously.. in the end, if I ever start to boast about myself. PLEASE TAKE A FUCKING BASEBALL BAT AND BASH ME OVER MY FUCKING HEAD WITH IT!! AND THEN SHOVE IT UP MY ASS!!! I AIN'T NEVER WANT ME TO EVER BE BOASTFUL EVER AGAIN!. I HATE IT!!!!

And most important of all... I dont find that there is anything in this world that is worthy to be boasted about. IF you think your handsome, there are thousands who may be more handsome that you are, If your pretty, there maybe thousands who are prettier than you are. If you are smart, there maybe thousands who are smarter than you are. If your humble, there are millions more who are more humble than you are. If your rich, unless you are Bill Gates, you still arent the richest person in the world, and you may wake up a poor man next week. If you have a pretty gf/wife, its for you to take care and pamper her and love her, not show her to the world like a medal. The world is filled with people that are better than I am, and thats what keeps my feet to the ground.

TO all the people who ever praised me, mighty thanks to all of your. Really sincerely =) though i always feel i dont deserve it. But thanks for seeing in me something that i cant see and still refuse to see. May God bless you all!!

Holiday coming to an end....

2006-09-03T18:51:00.000+08:00

Well.. a week of holiday has come to an end at last.

It has been a memorable week from start till finish. Things were mended, then broken again. Money was received, gambled and lost. Things just went full circle, some became a bit better some worse-off.

Oh well, it's just life =). Thats the way i guess, things come full-circle. Maybe one of the reason is because I believe that the the world doesnt owe us anything, its us who owes the world something.

Well, the one of the most ironic things to remember about this holiday, is sad songs. =). Sad, lonely songs. Had a few friends to share and embrace those songs for the past week..

Well just a short mumble today. Nothing much to write about. Maybe in the next few days something nice will come about and i'll write about it.

In anycase, in case anyone of you want me to write about something in secondary school, you can just leave a comment and i'll try to come out with something funny of it =).

Bonjour...

I'm Just Me.. and i hate hurting people

2006-09-01T13:25:00.000+08:00

Yesterday night i got burnt by fire. And it hurt really, but i guess i'll just have to live with it till the fire forgets it and go away. But the problem was not about me getting burned. I got no problem with getting burned.

The thing that i care about is hurting or annoying or making someone i care about angry. I hate that feeling. Especially if its to someone important to me. That hurt the most to me.

I dont care what most people think about me, how they perceive me i just dont give a damn. But i care a lot about how people important to me perceive me. And i care even more about how i treated them, whether i made them happy, or angry or sad.

I feel happy when they are happy and i'm not when they are not. And it hurts especially when they are not happy or angry because of me.

It's Just Me.

Its turning out to be a gloomy day after all.......

Wonderful isnt it? things can happen, and things cant happen...

2006-08-31T05:30:00.000+08:00

Well, today was kinda ok. I lost a lot of money for the past 2 days at the table. It was painful but somehow i think the person up there gives u back something for your money's worth or something more.

I got something worth more than anything I lost. It was a friendship. Haha.. the friendship stayed and I hope it would stay and improve. Had a talk with that person today,.. a very long talk. I think it was more of me bothering that person. =) I knew that person was tired and sleepy and annoyed at me but the annoying person in me kept just sitting there. ( Sorry ya if your reading this ).. Just joking, i actually enjoyed being in that person's company. SOrry, i'm a sucker, i know.

Well, i did ask that person a few things about what that person thought of me.. that person said quite nice things about me really. (Really thanks, it was sweet honestly). Its always refreshing to hear good things about yourself, who doesnt? =).

Anyone who's had a long talk with me would know one trait about me. I always contradict myself on things =) hehehe.... correct? I would say i believe in one thing, yet the next time you see me or talk to me i would say the other thing hahaha. Talking to me is like playing a gamble i guess, you have to analyze and place ur bets on where i really stand and whats really in the deck of cards. Some may say i'm a hypocrite, maybe i am, maybe i'm not. Its a matter of perception and whether i really care about that perception is really something else. Like one of my friend said "If we live on people's perception, life is gonna be difficult". Thats one thing i believe in. Which ironically i told that same person that a lot of things has to do with ppl's perception of you, which in turn i think is true in real life most of the time, but ironically i dont subscribe to and never care about.

Its just that the big question is "Do I Really Care?". I think that determines the relevance of people's perception right? .. It determines a lot of things too, not just that. If you know me even half, you will know where i stand.

I asked that person, "how much do u trust me?". =). To which that person replied, "You're smart enough to know the answer, and you know the answer". Sigh, I have this problem which is people think i'm smart enough to answer, which i dont. But well, hey, i think i'll gamble with this one and i like gambling by the way. I'll take a guess on where I stand after tonite =).

Its been a good night, but i have only 6 more months. Time is so short and limited when you need it. But i'll wait for time, cos waiting is what i do best =).

Also i have one last prayer to make, PLEASE GOD LET ME STRIKE SPORTS TOTO!! I finally thought of wut to buy now. HAHAHA.

I'm back to bloggin i guess

2006-08-29T03:39:00.000+08:00

Well.. i'm back to blogging i guess after a hiatus of a few months... =)
maybe i'll start regular blogging like wat weihan tells me to.

Hmm.. just a short update for u guys. Wut i have been up to these 2 months i've been back at kuching

1. Bought a new handphone.

Those of you who still remember, i once asked about wut i should get. Well, in the end i thought "what the heck, every semester i've not been able to keep any of my PTPTN money, so why dont i just fucking get something"

So here i have a new handphone the first day i got the loan money - the same day i had a big bashing from my mother cos i spent half of it on one small thing. The pain.

And sometimes i kinda regret it cos i dont come from a well to do family. THose of u who know me would know my status =)

BUt whenever i listen to songs using the phone, i feel that i made a good deal and the regret goes away. =)There was once i told my friend i dont regret buyin it. Then he said to me "Of course, when we buy phones like wat we have (he has a good phone too), we wont regret it cos of wat it can do". To which i replied, "I agree, it sure is wonderful to keep you company when ur lonely"... he looked at me with three black stripes on his forehead of course, because he was referring to the functions, not the value it brings to u when ur lonely - like how i saw it haha. =)

Since i was a kid i've always wanted a Sony Walkman, not an aiwa, not a sanyo or anything like that. It was an original SONY Walkman! then i wanted a SONY Discman instead. But i never got that because other things came in place of it, a pc, a playstation. But nonetheless the urge was still there. Finally when i'm 22 i got one, though its painful now cos i gotta eat bread kekeke.

Well, silly me, i havent introduced my phone.

It's a Sony Ericsson W810i Walkman Phone, my new wife which is just a month old.

2. Had another stupid classic silly act

Well as with me, i've always had one silly act every 3 years. Shooting myself when i know i'm gonna shoot at myself with the gun. This is the third time.

I shot myself a few weeks ago. SOmething nice came back out of it for 2 weeks. But then after that one day i woke up and told myself its not to be and to fuck off again. =) Well.. i'm sufficiently experienced to deal with it this time cos its not much different from the second time. The second time was way more times worse than this one so its ok =)

I dont wanna lose a friend, so i always choose the middle way out =). Typical me. Anyway. I still will keep my promises and vows to that person =). Told ya i wont break it so i wont ok? =) But you wont be reading this i know.

3. Well FInally i will be having another blog on friendster which i will update simultaniously with this one.

Why am i having 2? i dunno .. just for the fun of it i guess. Most who read the Blogger.com one (this one) are you all from tpg. So i guess the friendster one will be accessible to my friends in UNIMAS. Its gonna be up with a post in a few hours i guess

Stay tuned to here and friendster

First wall climbing experience

2006-06-15T10:23:00.000+08:00

I went for my first try of wall climbing at the Camp 5, 1 Utama wall climbing gym last Sunday. It set me back by RM116! because i took the basic wall course straight away. It was damn fun haha, especially when ur up there holding on to the wall..

But i found out one thing about me, that is how unfit i've become hahaha.. was so weak. Really have to buck up if i ever wanna climb like those guys who were there. By the way for u girls who are interested to go - the instructors and marshalls there are good looking and cute guys, for the guys - there's a lot of pretty girls in tank tops who go to climb there every sat and sunday.. so more incentive for u guys if u all are going hahah!!

Go try it out. its worth it. I went to check out the equipment shop they have there and boy, those equipment are really expensive. I guess i can only go seriously into it in another year after i graduate and start working - that's IF i come out to work in KL. Cant do much of it cos i'll be going back to sarawak in a few weeks. Though I hope to go again next weekend, for one more experience before i head back ..

Anyone who is interested to go on the 23rd o 24th can call me =)

my lecturers... after 2 years

2006-04-11T21:51:00.000+08:00

It has been quite a while since i blogged .. as you all know. Well now i'm back temporarily.

As long as i have started this blog, i have - surprisingly, or not? - never talked about my University. Wow.. has time gone by fast. While i was having a drink with one of my coursemates a few days ago, i looked back for a while in time and saw that it was 2 years already (almost) since i stepped into the front gate of University Malaysia Sarawak with my oversized luggage bag and 2 backpacks. After this semester i'll have only one more year before i graduate (hopefully) and decide if i want to continue on with my M.Sc. or to go out and toil in the corporate world. Well thats for later.. Today i'm gonna talk about the academic staff at my faculty, the Faculty of Economics and Business for a little bit of fun

DUring the drink i was having with my friend, we talked about our faculty and our lecturers. And we both have the same opinion about it - we like it a lot. Regarding public universities or institutions of higher learning, i'm sure a lot of you have heard allegations of unfair treatment of students, biased marking and so on from students. Some of the friends of my coursemates have even asked her if this happened at our faculty. Well.. our answer to that question is .. No.. not any that we have experienced so far. Bear in mind that i'm talking about my programme (not other programmes).

After studying here and getting to know those that have lectured me, my friend and i found them to be fair people who judge you by your work and performance. If you want some proof, you can just refer to the dean's list of our faculty. Maybe its not strong but i feel it does give some sort of support.Almost all the lecturers have been very helpful, fair and friendly. They dont pick on you for ur name or where you come from or how you look. And in some way i've been very happy that i came to this faculty even though its so far away from home. Of course there will always be bad people wherever, but they have been the small majority here and i've had the good luck of not having them lecturing my courses so far.

I dont know bout the allegations about other places in public universities, how true they are or if they really happened or not, but i can say that in my faculty those allegations dont happen in the economics programme. Here, i wanna say a big big thanks to all my lecturers so far for making me like economics and helping someone who doesnt know hoot about economics in the first place to understand it. And best of all for being great fair people who are interested and dedicated in passing on knowledge to anyone who wishes for it, whoever you are.

At the moment i'm still contemplating my postgraduate plan. If this place wasnt 'so close yet so far' from home, i would have stayed here to continue my postgraduate degree. Well, if i do continue my postgraduate, it would be at the UPM with the former colleagues or 'sifu' of my current lecturers. I forgot to mention that half of the academic staff in the economics programme of my faculty are alumnis of UPM hahaha.

Me doing a postgraduate degree in economics?? hmmm.... seemed so far away from what i wanted to be in the first place. But on hindsight, if you let me choose all over again now, i would without a doubt choose economics.

2006-03-03T23:41:00.000+08:00

Nasi sudah menjadi bubur. Mine is worse. My bubur has menjadi kerak. actually I burnt my porridge. This is not the first time. I always forget that I am cooking instant porridge. And I end up burning it. The pot is as black as ever. Man, this is not a good sign at all.

New past time .. New entertainment

2006-01-13T20:18:00.000+08:00

For the past few days, I've found a new type of entertainment to keep me company. Despite taking 7 subjects and filling my credit hours limit to the max.. i still manage to squeeze out time for my entertainment sessions yet again - I hope, since this is just the beginning of the new semester hahaha!...

Well.. my new past time is the good-ol traditional fav chinese table game - Mahjong. Yes... Yess.. my friends bought a set of mahjong recently and I took the liberty of joining them for games to pass time. Last nite we even pulled an all nighter ahaha.. nite till morning, since we didnt have any classes today (friday).

Well maybe i'm gonna go there again later tonite =) LOL!... Hope my parents dont find out. But its not gambling though hahaha.. Hey this is wat co-curricular activities in Uni's should be like in the first place!!!

2006-01-11T14:49:00.000+08:00

Yo everyone! Welcome to 2006! There has been a flurry of activities and events happening lately and I am emotionally exhausted. It's just the start of 2006 and I feel so drained. WTF? I thought of a nice stroll into the new year, but apparently my final year doesn't permit. This is so pathetic.

Well, cheers to everyone.

Dilemma.. Dilemma... needing Opinions

2006-01-08T22:01:00.000+08:00

I'm sitting here ar 10 pm in the night.. feeding mosquitos at the campus canteen and I'm stuck waiting for my download to finish - which is one and a half hours away from finishing, if lady luck smiles on me - and i'm thinking, what should i do. And I was sitting here wondering about something and I'm stumped, so I decided to post this and ask for enlightenment from you guys.

You see, the main problem - or dilemma - here is that I do not know how I should spend ( or not spend ) the money that I will be receiving in a week or 2 from now ( an account receivable, my accountant-to-be frens ^_^ ). From the account receivable, of course i'm keeping the bulk of it to finance my studies and for emergencies and also my travel/purchasing plans. But I decided that i wanted to take some money out to spend for something - limit is RM 500. I have a few options, but the problem is, as most of u have figured out by now, is that i dont know which one to choose. I need your help and opinions guys/girls. I'll list out the options and reasons below. HELP ME!!

Option 1: New Soundcard and Spanking new Speaker system.

Argument for spending:

Well you all know I love music. Listening to MP3's and such... so for a few semesters now i've been suffering with a cheapskate 2 piece USB powered speaker that sucks in sound and also relying on integrated sound. So i felt like having a good sound system with good sound output to ease my lust for music.

Option 2: A new handphone (budget one)

Argument for spending:

Those of you who have witnessed the tormented soul of my handphone know what I'm talking about dont you guys/girls. The phone is only 2 years old but the screen is cracked in 3 places, the headphone jack is partially destroyed, the body is lacking some pieces of plastic (by the way girls, I'm still using the same old casing from 2 years ago - see how loyal i am ^_^). And the keypad is dying on me. Sometimes is so difficult to sms that I want to just press the call button and call no matter how expensive it is. And reception is getting poorer by the week. I have a feeling its gonna die soon.

So I was just thinking about changing to a new phone. Not an expensive one with 2-megapixel camera that has expansion slots and can play MP3s for hours and is orange in color. NOpe. I'm just looking for a cheap one that i could afford. Camera or no camera doesnt matter but its at least gotta have a colour screen. Thats all I ask. So would this be a better idea?

Option 3: Ipod ( although have to top-up with ang pow money and table gambling wins during CNY - if i win la )

Argument for spending:

Dont think i need to explain it rite? the option speaks for itself

Option 4: Keep it for my trip/emergency.

Nuff said. You guys should know wat that means

Okays so... help me guys.. or some other comment would be wonderful too. Any suggestions?? sigh.. dilemma.

New post .. new year.. new sem.. wats happened so FAr??

2006-01-05T23:05:00.000+08:00

Well my new post in 2006.. HAH! most of u would think i would stop blogging for 3 months or more since i'm back in Uni now! didnt ya!!! no i didnt stop!!! well at least for now .. =)

Well 2005 ended for 5 days already, its already another year thats ended so fast and i'm 21 now. I can do everything that is permitted by law legally now. Can drink legally, can gamble legally ( in Genting), can get married legally, can have kids legally, one nite stands, 2 nite stands, buy Toto, Magnum 4D, 3D+1D watever u name it.

But sometimes I miss the innocence of doing illegal things when ur under-21 or under-18. Do you guys feel that way too? The innocence of saying " I donno mar!" or.. " I never thought of that mar" or more blatantly "I'm still underage mar!" cant be used any longer. sighh... Well 2005 was a year of 2 halves for me .. first half was wonderful.. second half was excruciating to the point that branding it as a "nightmare" was an understatement. I think only one person in the whole world know why its more than a nightmare for me (he/she is not a relative)

Well, how long has it been since i started this blog?? 6 months?? i dont think so but its nearing there. As you've all noticed in this blog, most of it is just crap. Very little personal things and very little intimate things that I share here. Mostly just my 1 cent of crap thats not worth mentionin. Once somemeone commended me that I'm brave enough to write things (personal, thoughts, etc) out for people to see. But I dont think so, nothing much that I write here is personal significantly. Maybe some thoughts =).

I think of this blog as something like an exended outing with my frens ( you guys who come & read my blog) - I believe those who read my postings are my frens that I know from tpg. And I dont know, but I think the way I blog here is a reflection of wat I do in real life when I go out with you guys - a lot of nonsense, a lot of crap, a lot of lame-assed jokes. ISnt it so?? haha.

If there is a significant number of people in the outing that i'm not familiar with, I'll be so quiet u think i'm foo weng =) ( sorry for the pun foo weng if ur reading this hehe ....I'm so bad.. but i'm sure you are very social now rite? people change through time. everybody does ). I'm sure you guys experienced seeing me quiet once in a while before. Maybe now u know why? maybe those were the times when i was unfamiliar with u guys.. But seriously, i do that(quiet) only when i go out or i'm in the company of ppl that i dont know and i'm not comfortable with. Once i'm comfortable with you guys like nowadays... i'm back to my crappy-lame-joke-nonsensical-self.

So are you guys lucky or Wut?? hahahaha!

Well... i have trouble keeping cool really. I mean cool as in the cucumber type where u can go through a whole outing just looking like ur the coolest piece of ice around. I've never been able to do that.. never comfortable. And i dont think i look cool like that. I would look so lame! hahaaahaha. Maybe too many years of Chow Sing Chi films shaped my character. =).

Well ... i'm still lucky to find friends in Uni who can take my nonsensical jokes still =). But none are like you guys, I cant tell them like when i tell them in front of you all. It feels so comfortable in front of you guys hahah! maybe its not comfortable for you, but it is for me! .. all the better for me! hahahahah but sad thing is u guys have to suffer =P.

Well here is to all of you Frens! to the ones who was with me for 15 years. to the ones who i was close till i'm so fren with the grandma. to the ones who i'm so comfortable with for all the years of my life and to the ones i've loved and cried for and to the ones who i've joked with nonsensically and lamely for so many years. THANKS>

FRIENDS ( Peng You )

These few years, one person; the wind has passed, rain has gone
There have been tears, there have been errors; still remember what's insisted upon
After loving truly, will we understand; it will be lonely, will return
Finally have a dream, finally have you, in my heart

Friends, together for life; those days will never have again
A sentence, a lifetime, a life of love, a cup of wine
Friends, never lonely again; a word of "friend" and you'll understand
There's still pain, there's still hurt, still we'll go, still there's me

A sentence, a lifetime, a life of love, a cup of wine

Emil Chau - Peng You

Types of Attack (Courtships) a jokes look ^^

2005-12-19T20:19:00.000+08:00

Well.. since I don't know why it seems like a courtship season now. Maybe seeing people doing courtship makes you wonder about yourself sometimes. HAHAHA... most probably its just seeing frens all over having partners or striving to get one adi. I guess being the odd one out isn't so bad after all. You get to be a free observer anytime you want!

Well the reason of this post is... erm... I suddenly thought of doing a humour look on the types of courtships( or modes of attack..) that a guy(or a girl) does to earn the love of the opposite sex. Bear in mind this is just a joke okay?? hehe .. for the amusement of those who has the same humour as I do. Hope it doesn't offend anybody though.

I got this idea when I reminiscenced a conversation I had with one of my friends about how he courted his gf.. So..

DISCLAIMER: If you cant take it as a joke.. don't read further!! and I am in no way an expert on this kind of stuff. As most of you who know me, knows my experience on relationships is VERY VERY LIMITED and was a long time ago. Heck its been almost few years since I was in a real relationship and I've only had one. And I don't think I'll be able to do anything like that either. So this is just for fun.

There are a lof of types of courtships we can classify. Those that I will present below are just what I could think of:

Type 1: Strategic Attack Tactics

This type of courtship is a well-planned step-by-step approach by the guy/girl to court his or her intended target. Outings and words are planned in advance with contingency plans for each and every moment.

Most used by individuals who are experienced in the art of courtship and are able to predict moves and counter-moves by the target and also competitors.

As of the moment I have not encountered any friends who are using this highly planned approach.

Type 2: Counter Attack Tactics

This type is actually where the person expresses his or her feelings first before the opposite sex does it ( of course feelings of acceptance la. rejection doesnt count).

The person would feel that the opposite likes him/her and therefore will ask for his/her hand first! hahahah

As of the moment, I only know of one who used this tactic before. Can't disclose it here =)

Type 3: Shock & Awe!!!

This is the most common type I've heard of! The person applies shock tactics to woo the his/her intended target.

This is done by .

(1) straight away in-ur-face expression of feelings. Hoping by some chance he/she is gonna strike it right and get the girl/guy.

(2) Arrange for a meeting or an outing alone with the intended target
and applying (1)

(3) Through electronic means (MSN, ICQ, IRC, phone) or traditional pen and paper and applying (1)

Type 4 : HOSTILE TAKEOVER!!!

Wow.. this one is dangerous. Do it at the risk of physical harm. As the name suggests, this involves courting a target who already has partner. In our layman terms, its called "using a spanner/crowbar and prying it off the cold hard fingers of another person"

This.. I leave it for you to decide the morality of it. I abstain from commenting.

Type 5: Friendly Merger

This one involves both parties wanting it to happen. In cantonese we use 3 words to refer to it. "Fai, Leng, Cheng" ( Fast, Pretty, Good).

No fuss, No waste of funds, No hassle.

But of course... who cares as you love each other rite??? heck .. I DONT MIND!

haha.. well only 5 types for now. So.. which one was yours or.. are yours.. or you prefer?? mind to share at the comment page?? don't be shy ler hahahahah!!! Maybe if you guys have any ideas to add to the above 5 feel free to suggest!

Lamp-post

2005-12-17T16:23:00.000+08:00

Speaking about being single when everyone around you isn't could be an irritating scene. Just when you want to hang out with your close friends, they are either too busy dating, or that they would have to bring their other half along. It sorts of kills joy. You have to watch what you say, be on best behaviour, etc. Basically, you just cannot be yourself 100%.

Frankly, when you decide to have a heart to heart talk with 'outsiders' lurking around, it isn't fun anymore. It's no more the same now because the group has expanded. Sometimes, you may end up as the towering, brightest lamp-post. It's worse when your friends start to make out or get all too lovey-dovey with their partner. Heck, you don't want to witness all their vows of love. And you are not interested in soft porn either. Sometimes, it makes you sick being the tiang lampu.

But, seriously, you have to accept the fact that your friends will not wait for you. There are other people whom they are committed to now and it's not about you anymore. But could those lovebirds spare some time for their friends because life ain't about both of you either?!

2005-12-14T03:07:00.000+08:00

Woohoo!

This is my first post as a guest blogger, so pardon me for the irregularities.

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Bitter tea is good. Literally and metaphorically. But often we just never realise it. Everything that tastes bitter is often discarded as bad experience, but the silver lining that comes with bitterness is always a lesson. No wonder old people keep reminding us. They have been there, tasted everything until their tastebuds are numbed. So we might as well learn from them. A little bitter tea could do us some good.

WHAT THE HELL!!! Dont They Grow up!!??

2005-12-10T19:59:00.000+08:00

I just saw something on TV that was so bad .. I cannot keep it to myself and I have to blog about it! Its so sick!....

Have you ever seen or heard an awareness advert on TV about Dengue fever that is sung in some 80's kiddy pop style???? OH MY GOD!!!.... I can't believe I just saw something like that on TV!...

I was dumbfounded for half a minute there. My brain just froze in hell and completely went into coma when I saw it. How would someone in their right mind give a damn about such a low quality awareness advert that reeks of such bad taste that it would still seem extremely laughable if it was shown a decade or more ago...

The music composition was like some kindergarten song. And i seriously think Ba Ba Black Sheep sounds a lot better and gives more awareness than that advert did. I was like.. damn... even the picture quality sucked.. It was as though it was stuck in the 70's/80's where the colour that you see on TV were washed out and looked it it went into the washing machine one time too many with an overload of Dynamo.

What the hell are those in charge of these stuff in the government department doing?? Doesnt Filem Negara have better quality production tools?? or issit they have an overstock of 20 years of low quality 8mm films and can't finish them??? Its a sick waste of taxpayers money spending on these kind of low quality campaigns.

I believe that campaigning to raise awareness is an important part in combating any disease or danger.. but doing it in this way is just absurd! If I wasnt watching, I would have thought it was a childrens Barney song!.

Damn it! Won't those people in charge of these stupid, tax-payer-money-wasting, di*k heads that continue to run these stupid things grow up and open their eyes???... It was just sick.

CGI vs. Non CGI.... FAKE ?? REAL??? Part 1

2005-12-09T22:14:00.000+08:00

Hhhmmm..... I thought "what to write about?" and a friend gave me an idea to blog about movies that have so much CGIs in them that it went to overkill.. so I thought .. why not .. but just blogging bout that I would have little to write about, so maybe I would write a little bit more than that and provide the movies that I had savoured for the past year and movies that I loved with CGI and without.

Anyone who knows me well, knows that I love movies. I'm completely crazy bout them no matter in forms of live-action or animation. Hmm... when was the first real movie I saw with CGI that blew me away... I think was .. 12 years ago, Jurassic Park. Since then we've seen a lot of fake things made real =). Well, the path had been bumpy, for every wonderful movie with CGI you had 5 more that were bad. Bad as in not the quality of CGI most of the time, but the movie that it came in - the acting, the dialogue, the story. It seems as thought the moviemakers think that just having superduper CGI or special effects would make us forget we paid RM 9 - if ur watching in a cineplex ( or RM 5 on student discount) or RM10 ( if ur buying a good quality pirated dvd) and spending 2 hours of our lives to see flashlights. Sigh...

But I have to admit some of my best moments I've had on reel is made up of movies with loads of CGI's - and with strong stories!!.

Anyone of you Tpgites who are old enough surely would still remember Lido ( Leh Tor in hokkien ) Theater - some refer to it as cinema. Where people que up for hours for any blockbuster movie and push/shove each other to get into that large theater. Well my best movie experience during the first few years of my life was at that place, watching JURASSIC PARK. For a lot of people a generation before us, the defining moment for sci-fi or movie experience was Star Wars. For me, it was Jurassic Park. The moment the awesome Brachiosaur stood up on its 2 hind legs to feed on the leaves of a damn tall tree, I was lost in awe.. and when I think back, I can still feel myself sitting in that theater with the only thing I was aware of, was the dinasour in front of me. I was totally transported into the world. That was the defining moment for me when it came to CGI and was never surpassed at all, the closest any movie with CGI ever came to overwhelming me was the LOTR trilogy ( which I can tell you sits firmly at my top 5 movies - live-action- that I love . It certainly made me fell head over heels again.. but it was still second to the moment I had in Jurassic Park. I guessed I was spoiled by too much crappy CGI in too many bad movies.

Actually I can't take a stand between CGI and non-CGI.. because to me ... ultimately its the story that counts and it depends a lot on the story. Who can imagine LOTR or Jurassic Park without CGI?? haha ... But I have to admit there are a lot of crap out in the market nowadays.

But if you look at the past year, there were a lot of good films that used little or no CGI at all.. classic old-school story telling on celluloid I would say. Films like Million Dollar Baby ( Eastwood at his best.. highly recommended), American Splendor, Hotel Rwanda ( the ever likeable Don Cheadle in top form) and PTU from Hong Kong ( Johnny To and Simon yam - brining Hong Kong back to style) were films which I enjoyed and liked the most. If u asked me to name a CGI filled movie that I liked for the past year.. I'm hard pressed to give an answer really.

Maybe most of the filmmakers are losing their touch with story telling... consequences of the MTV generation maybe?? Who knows haha.

I think Not.....

2005-12-07T04:34:00.000+08:00

Well.. this is a record!!!! second post in one nite!!

The moment i'm writing this.. its half-time of AC Milan vs Shalke 04. and its 4.30 in the morning...

I remembered I wrote a post.. that should I write personal things here .. express personal feelings here or not..And a while ago I was talking to a friend about posting blogs. Somesort la.

Well.. I think (I'm quite sure) that I would not post personal feelings here at all... Never... these things should be kept for myself and maybe someone special. And I dont think I blog frequent enough for it too hahaha! .. Anyway the chat box is down. I dont know how to get it up again ( Partly lazy of course).

How about we play something for you guys. Since I blog very little, maybe this game would persuade or encourage me to blog more often and become my inspiration of sorts haha =). How about you guys put in the comments.. what you would like me to make a story of or blog about. =) I would try my best to do it seriously (as long as I approve!! ) hahaha.

Well..... Sometimes i dont know ...

2005-12-07T02:05:00.000+08:00

Well its been ages since posted.... I wonder if there would still be people visitin this blog since I update it so "often" ( read RARELY ). Hmm... been back for holidays for more than 2 week already. There is only another 2 weeks or so left.

Sometimes it feels so lonely when your back. Don't know ler. Dont get me wrong, I always prefer back in Taiping rather than in Kuching. Just that sometimes when your back you really don't know what to do. It's kinda funny, I always joke with my gang.. LOL .. (90% of them have a girlfren adi and going steady..). I always tell them " SIgh Lu lang ka liao ou cha bo peng yiu liao... kua tiuk pun chiak chor ( vinegar) ... cham liao la wa... sien si ar ti chu chi kiok lang" - literally translated it means " Sigh.. all of u have gf adi .. see adi also jealous.. i'm in deep sh*t.. bored like hell alone at home" .. =)

Well its funny ya know.. I tell one of my friend ... He shoots me back that he's instead jealous of me, free to go wherever I want.. Don't have to answer to anybody.. Don't have to report to anybody. HAHAHAHA........

Ya know that day one of my friends asked me about my opinion on his relationship with his gf. How about this, and how about that. Hmm... then later when we were playing snooker with another close friend ( who also has a steady girlfriend for quite some time), they commented that I'm the earliest to have one la... most experienced la (?? WTF???).. so its good for them to ask me la... I WAS LIKE WFT!!!! experienced??? ARE U GUYS OUT OF UR MINDS??? I WAS 16 then!! and now look at me?? hahahahah!! LOL

No way.... aahahh

To think of it.... it is difficult to think of any of my friends who does not have a partner or who is not close to having one. I maybe one of the earliest to experience having someone but...The first to get... the last to have one again maybe? HAHAHA...

Anyway as a disclaimer: I'm not desparate or anything for a partner.......its just that nowadays its extremely hard to find an activity partner of the same sex for football or games or running or hiking. My god.. asking frens of the same sex to go for morning runs or evening hikes or for cyber games during afternoons and evenings is so damn difficult when they have girlfriends!! haha... maybe I was like that too last time. I think I certainly was.

F**King SEMester... sighh

2005-10-27T13:17:00.000+08:00

well.. here i am again. By the time i'm writing this post i hate myself a lot. Dont know why but i hate myself a lot because of a number of reasons and also because of things that happened this semester.

I hate myself because:

1) Why cant i be like other ppl and not be so worried about responsibilities.

I admit i'm not the most responsible of people but... i keep getting worried about things which other ppl can leave behind and not worry. Why cant i be like them? I'm getting myself all stressed up by all these things which should have been the responsibilities of other people. ah.. F*ck.. i dont even know what i'm talking aboutt...

One thing i've learned from this semester - always trust your own instincts ... and if you dont feel its gonna work, dont do it, push it away no matter what people say. Just trust what your heart says.

Because i didnt do that i got myself into deep shit. i've learned the lesson the hard and bitterway. I just wanna get over this semester and forget things that happened and hope i dont have to repeat any papers. I lost so many things this semester. SHit

today talkin bout exam experience!....I'm BACK from THe crypt.. at least for a few days..

2005-09-02T17:22:00.000+08:00

Well this is the first post in .. whut... 2 months??? i've just met shin sar on msn and she thought i abandoned this blog already.. haha.. Well I told her not .. YET... haha.

well the semester has been sick ... crazy.. hell.. any other negative things that u can name it enter here---> (...).

I dont know what I've been doing this semester actually.. the previous saturday i had 2 exams and I crazily waited till the day before to start reading the notes. (Before that for those who do not know.. I have a History subject as one of my cores this semester... History of Economic Thought... 3 years after f5 and i have to study history again... "^_^...)

It was hell.. I had to take 7 cups (...or 8...i lost count) of coffee to read up on the History book and I onli started "browsing" through the notes of the other subject - which thank fully was a calculation subject at 4 a.m.....). I didnt sleep at all ..

I took a brief shut eye.. at 6 something in the morning i think.. then i opened my eyes after half an hour and my heart was beating hard and fast.. very fast... I thought "shit...whats happening.. must be the coffee + lack of sleep".. Hands started to shake too .. already 7 something at that moment and my exam was at 9.am.

My heart was pounding mad and I didnt dare to take a bath ( fear that the extremely cold water would cause me to suffer a heart attack .. or go into shock.. really worried.. )

Then to cut a long story short .. I sat for the exam with my heart pounding and my hand shaking. I choose a spot at the end of the exam room. There I had a clear view of everyone, I could see their hand movements (but of course I couldnt see what they were writing lar). I took a look at the question and ... -to borrow a phrase from Louis Armstrong's What a Wonderful World - I said to myself "What a wonderful world".

I COMPLETELY DID NOT KNOW HOW TO ANSWER EVEN HALF OF THE QUESTIONS!

I looked around, everybody was writing.. shit.. so I started to write as much as I could remember from the previous night. It was a 2 and a half hour exam. I finished writing as much as I could after an hour, and it was barely half of the paper. I sat there staring blankly at my paper .. .then i looked around .. and another "oh f**K ".. automatically came out of my lips.. practically everyone was still writing , and they were writing rigorously! non-stop!!.. it was as if all were possesed!!!.. and now i'm having cold sweat .. i was practically the only person who did now have anything to write... they continued writing until around half an hour before the paper ended .. someone went to pass up his/her paper and i followed suit. hahaha i sat there for 45 minutes playing with my pen ..

When I went to pass my paper up to the lecturer - she knew my name, for which I dread everytime a lecturer knows me at all - she asked me " So, Kok Shyong, can do?? "I stood there, trying not to sweat... and I told her " ermm.. arr... actually... arrr.... I didnt do this and that and this ( pointing to the questions )" then I quickly walked out. SHIT!!

Damn... well when my frens asked me what I wrote, I told them honestly, "The lecturer wanted history, I wrote her a damn fairytale" "-_-.... sigh.. really... She wanted Adam Smith and the Division of Labor, I gave her Adam Smith and the Big Bad Wolf. She wanted Thomas Malthus and the Theory of Population, I gave her Thomas Malthus and the Ugly Duckling. She wanted Karl Marx and something i forgot... I gave her Karl Marx's Journey to The West.

Aiyooo.. she's gonna kill me when she gives the marks!.. I dont know if she will laugh or tear my paper up when she reads it . sigh! .. all that I have another paper one hour later.

Well.. this is a long enough post for a brief comeback ... I'll post another story tonite if I do come online =)

Going back....

2005-07-08T20:44:00.000+08:00

I'm gonna have to go back to Sarawak tomorrow... very reluctant to leave after a holiday that was so nice.. really recharged myself alot..

The past one month was really really..... dont know how to say. A lot of things happened ..so much in fact that i hope nothing permanently bad happened or anything.. I did a lot of mistakes and screwed a few important things up.. but before that a lot of happy things happened too.

I guess... this hols really opened my eyes and my mind to a lot of things.. Look forward to the next holiday. I'll have to go back and relive my image of a bookworm again. I think this semester calls for an image change.. i'm gonna be who i really am now! =) they would see a side of me that they have never seen =). The side that all of u know about me haha.. the hard playing type!

Anyway.. this blog may get left behind for some time .. unless i get real internet connection

See ya all ok! all the best to all of u out there

On a Sunday Morning

2005-07-03T14:51:00.000+08:00

"There is no better feeling in this world than to be able to share your joy with the one you love and share their joy in return, no better strength than to be able to share the sadness, pain and burden of your loved one, no better paradise or heaven than being together with the love of your life"
- Me

"The mind is a powerful tool .. but ultimately it still is inferior to the strength of the heart"
- Me

"It is as near to you as your life, but you can never wholly know it"
-Rabindranath Tagore

"You.. complete me" - Jerry Maguire from the motion picture Jerry Maguir3

Today Morning.. memorable.. cherished...Past month.. wonderful!

2005-07-01T11:16:00.000+08:00

I had a great morning today .....

Today morning was great, i'm posting this at 11 am.. i wont know whats gonna happen in the evening but it was a fun morning.

Havent had this kind of feeling of enjoyment and satisfaction in a long time ... really.

There was just this sense of.... happiness... free

I dont know if i'll experience this feeling again anytime soon... but i sure hope there will be another time.

I did something that i never thought i had the courage to do today... whatever happens,

I had a great morning that i will cherish. One of the best in my 21 years of existence

For the past month, there were good times, fun times and down times, but i think the happy ones out weigh the bad ones significantly, I never would have imagined i would be doing what i did for the past month. It was a happy month in my life overall and one of the best weeks of my life so far happened during the last month .. and one of the best few morning i've ever had.

I will cherish this month and the days in it.

Should I this.. or that???

2005-06-24T23:00:00.000+08:00

I came back from PG a few days ago.. and before I say anything else, what a week it was. The PG trip was ok with Batman a wonderful movie ( Batman is not cheesy or crap anymore!) and Mr. and Mrs Smith, entertaining nonetheless. Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie.. would there be any other couple as hot as they are? It was worth the trip for both movies.

Anyway, this week I had quite a few thoughts running through my mind. And I didnt know what interesting stuff should I post on the blog. Even though a lot has happened, and a lot has been going through my mind, none I would put up on the blog without any doubt, which brings me to this posting today. Could I post personal thoughts that are normally private on the blog? make an anonymous name and create a new blog, post it out to clear my mind? I've been thinking about it today. Of course I cant post it here, even though I could use other names and say it in a 3rd party point of view, it would still be easy to guess. Hmm.. see how lor...

Also.. my hard disk is full with animes now.. i bought some dvd+r to keep them but it seems i need a lot more. Have to wait for my other trip to PG.

.... they dont have music like they used to .. or issit i'm just an oldie

2005-06-22T00:17:00.000+08:00

Well, 8 hrs before I head to Penang for my movie marathon. Anyway, I finished watching "Sepet". It was a nice film and had a nice story to go with. Well if you ask me, I would rate it at 3 out of 5 stars. =).

I found the first half of the film amusing and entertaining as it showed things that are closer to the reality for a lot of us. Can't help but laugh out at some of the scenes - even my mother had fun and laughed watching some of the scenes. I found the film to be more about the love story between 2 people than about the racial undertones that some make it out to be . There are mentions of things about races, but for me it plays a clear backseat and is just there to make it more real situation. Although some phrases from the film from time to time really are clearly targeted at showing some of the feelings each race "secretly" has for each other but I find it amusing rather than anything else. It's really nice to see that the Malaysian independent film scene has movies like this and I really hope to get my hands on more especially those from Ho Yu Hang, whom critics and the media have praised a lot. It's not easy to get films that are made by them. Still trying to find "Sanctuary" from Ho Yu Hang after so long. If anyone sees it please tell me ok???!!!

Anyway, one of the things that I really liked about the show was the parents of Orked and especially, the opening credits of the film. The opening was really sweet too, with mentions of Rabindranath Tagore's poems in Mandarin! . I mean, it would have been fabulous if we could learn it in f5 or f6. Language sessions would be nice. I liked the f4 literature book a lot. The collection of short works. Back to the opening credits...

I was kinda surprised when the Sam Hui song was used in the opening credits.. maybe it's nostalgia but it was really sweet i guess. His love songs and slow ballads really suit things like that. Maybe because its simple. I always found his slow songs to have that special thing. And one of my fav songs from him is obviously the ending credits songs. To me thats one of the most wonderful cantonese songs you can ever find. The current cantonese songs are a super far cry from his ones. They dont make songs like his ones anymore..... hmmm... Really wonder if anyone can make a translation of the song for me. I only understand some parts. But the music is really special.

I dont know how to read mandarin, so reading the lyrics to determine the full meaning of the songs is out of the window. Its because of things like this - not being able to read the songs lyrics or the numerous chinese novels - that I seriously regret not being able to read mandarin. Not because ppl criticise me or anything, but because of not being able to understand fully the nice things about these writings and lyrics.... Sigh... maybe I'll tell my son/daughter to learn mandarin because if not they would miss a lot of these beautiful things.

I got my hands on......IT!

2005-06-20T11:30:00.000+08:00

Well I missed the football match between Brazil and Mexico but it didnt matter because I had a good sleep as compensation for the match. And Brazil lost anyway.. Oh boy... guess I didnt miss much then. BUT finally I got my hands on "SEPET"!! before that let me bore you with my morning....

I woke up at 6.00 this morning and I kept myself in bed for another hour since it was too early to go anywhere. Went for a jog at the lake around 7.30.... I really jogged instead of run today. Just wanted to sweat. Anyway, I went for breakfast at the car park ( below the Chamber of Commerce) and today as I was having my regular plate of wan tan me kon lou I suddenly thought about how long it has been since the first time I came to eat at the place. I've been frequenting that place for 8 years now. Oh boy... how time passes by. I still remember the first time I went there was after a morning scouts training session on a Saturday. Seniors recommended the place and it stuck since. Since then we've recommended it to our friends and juniors and so on. Its kinda the place where SGI guys would surely go for breakfast after a walk/jog at the lake. Hope it will still be there another 8 years down the road. But i dont see anyone younger than 17 from my school anymore though. Hmmm....

Anyway the highlight of the morning was when I went to the Plaza Perbandaran to look for some DVDs to kill time for the afternoon. There was only one shop open and I thanked God that my luck didnt totally run out. I was looking through the DVDs when the owner asked me what show was I looking for, I told him that I was just browsing through. After a while I couldnt find any I wanted and since I'm going down to PG in 2 days to catch Orangkelawar and En. & Pn. Smith I declined when he recommended them to me. Then I thought of a movie that I wanted ... I asked the guy "Uncle, pun te (local) he chut hi'e, teng nang ai huan na eh uu bo?" ( the local movie where a chinese guy likes a malay girl got ar?) to which he replied " oohh .. her le huan na hi'e hio" ( the Malay movie issit) . He rummaged through his black plastic bags for a while then returned and said it was not at his shop, at home. He asked me to come back at night but I was lazy and told him nevermind.

I continued to look through the DVDs and suddenly the guy when to the back of his shop, put his hands inside the table cloth and tried to look for something underneath. I was thinking "What the hell is he looking for inside there??? cockroaches??? or bread crumbs left behind from last nite?". After a brief moment his hand came out from underneat the table cloth holding the movie I was looking for. I had the "^_^ expression when he gave it to me. Still wondering who would keep it under the table cloth. He told me he had to keep it there because he feared the authorities would catch and summon him if they found the bootleg version of "SEPET".

Yea right! Uncle!... As if ur whole shop selling ORIGINAL DVD AND VCDs!!!! As if not having "Sepet" above the table would make ur business legitimate ( long phiak!). I almost wanted to laugh out but I just smiled at him and paid the money and went home. So I popped it into the DVD player and started watching it.. LOL.. it was fun but I only managed to watch half of disc one before I had to go out again. Anyway I'll post up my thoughts and short review of the show a later after I watched it.

And remember the lesson of this morning, you are doing a legal business by selling bootleg VCD and DVD unless you are selling bootleg versions of "SEPET". LOL....

Longest nite.... and a little bout TPG

2005-06-20T00:32:00.000+08:00

Its only 11.28 p.m and I feel like its already 2 in the morning. Actually I AM waiting for 2 in the morning, well... more like 2.45 am for a football match between Brazil and Mexico but the way things are going I think I may well be dozing off before long.. So I decided to make a post to keep myself awake.

20 days before I leave tpg again for Sarawak. I think I maybe able to do 20 posts assuming I have enough topics ( which I seriously doubt - so maybe around 10 at the most). So... today its gonna be on what I think I feel about myself ( a little bit .. not much) and about Taiping, TPG ( also a little )

There was one night- I forgot which night that was- I was talkin to a friend on msn and our casual conversation took a detour and went to how we think about our characters, about ourselves. Well, so I told him/her... I think I was born in the wrong era.. 20/30 years too late but in a right place. Taiping is the right place for me I guess. A town that never changes much, keeping much of its characteristics of old intact - A slow, peaceful town suitable for long days of thinking and relaxing without much "hectic" or noisy entertainment. If you want movies and shopping you can go up north to find its much illustrious cousin who speaks the same dialect, Penang. If you want some serious entertainment, hot places to be and the hectic life of a bustling city, head south to its cantonese speaking cousin, Kuala Lumpur. Taiping is just like what people call it, a retirement city for those looking forward to a peaceful and most teenagers call "a boring life". ...... And it suits me just fine!!! In many ways I find myself just like this town and in many ways it reflects what I think of myself.

But times are surely changing. The lake gardens which before 4 years ago was a place I enjoyed running on the outer ring, whether its in the mornings or in the evenings is a bit different now. The look of it is still mostly the same - still beautiful as always. But its the other things that are changing. The traffic is the worst thing to happen to it. I can't enjoy running on the outer ring much anymore ... unless its very early in the morning before cars start to stream in. On weekdays its just impossible to run outside ( only on weekends... I almost died once while running on the outer ring) so these days I just keep myself to the inner lanes. But one thing I find nice is that a lot more ppl are coming to the lake gardens, more old and young alike, coming to enjoy it ^_^. If you want to be alone.. go early in the mornings before 7.45 am.. If you would like to see people.. go after that or come in the evenings. Ahh...... the Lake is alive again.. even the boat rentals are doing brisk business it seems. If only the traffic can be fixed.. hmmmmm

A simple advice given?.. but i dont know if it sucks or not

2005-06-19T02:15:00.001+08:00

This is just my 4th post and I think I'm suffering from something called a blogger's block, if there is something like that.

Its a Sunday already (technically a Sunday since its 2.18 in the morning) and another week has passed. Countdown to go back to Sarawak again, another 3 weeks. Yesterday a friend from my Uni messaged me. She said she was a bit down , most of her friends went to science courses while she went to an arts course (she's doing marketing) and with her grades dropping she wonders what will happen in the future.

Well, being a guy who sucks at giving advice and more adept at cheering himself up rather than another poor soul, I refrained from telling her too much. I just told her to dont think about things that are still so far away, how would she know whether she would get a good job in the future or anything else for that matter. I said " sometimes we worry about the future so much that we are blinded and miss out on the great things that exists in the present" .. "why dont you think about what are you gonna do next week, in another month and after this coming semester during the holidays, heck, why don't you think about where you can go pak tor with your boyfriend next month when you see him again, stop worrying too much and go enjoy your uni life with ur bf. Leave the worrying for bachelors like me!" ... ]

I did worry about the risk of unemployment after graduation too during a certain time. I guess its something that gets into the mind of every undergratuate sometime or another. But I think its certainly one that we shouldn't dwell on too much at this time of our life. Graduation is still 2 years away and we still have time. So enjoy the moments in life like ur supposed to and keep your 2 feet on the ground. Be alert of whats happening but don't worry too much.

A Sleepless 15 hours....

2005-06-15T09:03:00.000+08:00

WOw, I managed to screw up my bio clock again as I have been awake since 6 pm yesterday and i'm still not feeling any effects of sleep deprivation. Before 6 pm yesterday I was sleeping like a baby for 8 hours because I was awake for the whole night the previous night and the same thing for the night before. I think my bio clock is now running at GMT +1.00 Amsterdam time

Anyway since I cant sleep might as well make another entry into my new born blog. ( I will be trying hard to re-adjust my bio clock to default settings of GMT +8.00 Malaysian time)

First about my previous motorcycle-messing-up hair-hot-skinburning-wet-thunderstorm entry haha. It was done for humorous reasons and its one of my least concerns when thinking about having a gf (although I admit it is a factor nonetheless). ^_^. For other reasons.... stay tuned to my blog!! hahaha if I feel like it I may tell for all you gossipers out there. ( what a way to sucker ppl to your blog..but seems unlikely it will work for mine).

I finished reading The Star paper for today and it contained some interesting things especially for the Star Two main story. Before that I would like to highlight one small section in the national news that had something to do with higher education. Our beloved Minister of Higher education Datuk Dr. Shafie Mohd Salleh announced that beginning with this year's intake for public universities the compulsory TITAS subject that a lot of us dread will be having 2 new elements, Ethnic Relations and Islam Hadhari. "^_^ . Personally, I would really like to see what would be in the Ethnic Relations element and I'm very relieved that I passed both of my TITAS papers in the 2 previous semesters and that I'm not in this year's intake.

But the real thing that made my day was the last line which mentioned that the ministry was considering incorporating a paper on ethics in undergraduate and postgraduate programmes. Well, now thats a "revolutionary" idea is it not?? Religious and Moral studies during primary and secondary schools for 13 years is not enough for Malaysians to have good ethical values, so what do we do??? Drill them more on what is "baik hati" and "kasih sayang" and another 14 other main values and God knows how many hundred sub-values and definitions and examples for those who are in the universities.
Brialliant idea! Pedidikan Moral then Pengajian Moral ... then now wut? Pendidikajian Moral???

Star Two today had a nice topic about job interviews. Had a good chuckle ( only a chuckle ) about the humorous situations that were mentioned. I dare not laugh because when I imagined myself taking the interview in the near future, I kinda had a spine tingling feel and a sudden cold wind blowing past me. "^_^. Can't imagine what would happen. "^_^

On a more cheerful note:
Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy would be showing in cinemplexes on June 23rd!! I wouldn't want to miss that. Who wants to go!!! I can be reached anytime on my phone!. Not to mention if you have the book I will call you instead and offer you a complementary burger Ramlee.

And for you all who are fascinated with the creatures we call "Ah Beng's" a short but insightful chat with Wei Loon few days ago and some short description I read on the net a dozen hours ago made me think of why some (mostly guys who consider themselves as anti-ahbengs) hate them so much. hmm..... Maybe more about this in my next post as I try to think of the reasons why some of us call them so and why some of us hate them.

The Reason For Not Going......

2005-06-14T03:38:00.000+08:00

I'll start off by telling you guys a story that happened around a week a go when I went to visit Wei Loon at Nagaria during his work hour to have dinner ( I had Thai fried rice by the way).

During dinner of course Wei Loon came by and we chatted because there really wasn't any other customer other than me and another small family seated quite far from where I was.
So we talked and out of the sudden our conversation went into the gf/bf territory. So he asked me why I didn't get one since I've been having a few new friends recently (Don't ask who!) and suggested I go after a particular one. So the part where I rebutted him and told him the reasons why goes something like this :

Wei Loon : Hey why don't you go get a gf.. go kau (court) her lar.

Me : Cannot lar. ( Don't have intention also )

Wei Loon : Why cannot? Ask her out lar or something. I support you.

Me : Wanna kau with wat.... I what also dont have, hamik pun bo.

Wei Loon : No need one, got true heart can adi one mar, girls see heart one.

Me : Aiyo....cannot say like that lar, i tell u one situation. Lets say I wanna ask the girl out then i tell the girl " Hey wanna go out today to xxxxx?" then the girl say "Sure!." then I say " I come fetch u with motorcycle ok? I come at 1 noon ok??" then ar the girl would have this reaction ( "-_- ) sure think "whoa siau! one o'clock ar! u think i very fair ar!.. pien tai eh this guy" and would proceed to tell me out of the sudden "hey i just thought of something to do.. boh eng lar.. sorry"

Wei Loon (ROFL) : HAHAH ... where got so cham ar!

Me : Sigh... not easy leh.. must have a lot of things. That one i told u just one reason leh. Think of motorcycle in TPG. When fetch the girl to come out dating burning hot like hell sweat until like pig and skin hurt, go back that time leh in the evening around 5 p.m. thunderstorm! kena soak like washing machine Whoa.. tua ki lor!! Double whammy in one day!! hahahah .. tiuk pa ji lor! LOL! Wanna go kau lui need to have car lor.. cannot lar moto. Bo ngam leh.

Wei Loon : Not all girls like that mar...

Me : I know I know.. Wa beng pek eh... but then.. sigh

Hmm... so that was how I told him my reason ( one of ) ... I WOULD LIKE TO STATE HERE THAT I SINCERELY BELIEVE MOST GIRLS ARE NOT MATERIALISTIC!!!!!! but i cant help but think of the situation above.. and the hell weather that is TPG.... and not to mention the super uncomfortable helmets that would mess up the best hair do and the difficulty and unbearable thing of riding on a motorcycle dressing up nicely. I am no way referring that girls are materialistic. What i said was just to add humour to the situation at that moment. I believe most girls wont mind at all. But i just cant help thinking about the situation above and countless other situations. And i cant bear the girl to suffer along. True nowadays the girl can come out with transport of her own one mar, but need how many times come out alone leh.... go back alone if at night also worried leh.

As i said once.. girlfriends should be pampered not brought along to suffer. I never thought about these things last time when i was young ( I'm still young ) but nowadays I kinda pause to think about it. Sometimes i imagine.. would i be able to bear looking at a gf to "enjoy" the weather with me like that and also go out no money eat out. Valentine day no money buy present.. B'day no money buy nice thing... Anniversay no money go dinner nice nice. Well like my pal Wei Loon and the gf pointed out later.. these things are trivial. But i think for me it may mean a bit more lo...since i dont know how the girl would feel mar ( and girls .. you ppl really are... hard to know how u feel!!! ). And i dont want the girl to suffer along.

Well after saying all this... Wei Loon say "ur caring lor.. gf sure lucky one" and some after reading all this may say "wah.. very caring and thoughtfull wor".......................................... but I'm actually not that caring and thoughtfull at all, not my gf donno nia.. if ur my gf can cry one lorr... aHAHAHAHA. I got even more bad things.

Just something to share in this blog and those of you who ask me why I still dont have a gf and wonder why? Now you know... =). And also I'm kinda pessimistic and plain and not that talkative at all... not much girls like that i think. UNLESS the girl come and ask me instead lar!! i dont mind that one kakakakakak!!! hey hey... just joking dont anyone get angry at this.

I firmly believe a lot of girls out there who would sacrifice a lot to be with their loved ones....

Finnnnaalllyyy the figging Pic is up

2005-06-13T15:28:00.000+08:00

Finally i got to upload my picture to the profiles. Bear with the ugly photograph cos its the only one i currently have and as i seldom take or keep pictures ( the character of Ko Chun from God of Gamblers comes to mind kekekeke ) i cant find a better one at such a short notice.

Anyway it was taken at KLIA a few months ago and I may now be a bit chubbier and my hair would be shorter. Had some issues with Hello but maybe its just me getting confused by the layout. Got the hang of it now.

First Post

2005-06-13T02:45:00.000+08:00

Yo all this is my first POST in this new blog......ermm.... so what should i say now... errrrrr....

Ok.. i made this blog after i posted a short essay in circles99 taiping. Weihan got fed-up asked me to make a blog but i say lazy lar wanna make blog, but after a while got fans ^-^ ask me to make , so after a few days i bow to their request lor! hahaha .. yo joking bout the fans thing!! WHat i really meant was FRIENDS! and i made it cos i wanted to try it out too. Just making up a story for fun. Dont angry ya!

Joking onli ya, dont angry! And i think the ones who will come to my blog are mostly friends so, as you all know me, i prefer to use simple kopitiam english, and i dont type with perfect grammar or capital letters at the right places. I put them where i like to, cos i'm just plain lazy i guess. What to do, my typing skills were born from the fires of irc chatting. =)

CHeck back in a few hours to find my first crap story on the blog. GTG.