Well, today was kinda ok. I lost a lot of money for the past 2 days at the table. It was painful but somehow i think the person up there gives u back something for your money's worth or something more.
I got something worth more than anything I lost. It was a friendship. Haha.. the friendship stayed and I hope it would stay and improve. Had a talk with that person today,.. a very long talk. I think it was more of me bothering that person. =) I knew that person was tired and sleepy and annoyed at me but the annoying person in me kept just sitting there. ( Sorry ya if your reading this ).. Just joking, i actually enjoyed being in that person's company. SOrry, i'm a sucker, i know.
Well, i did ask that person a few things about what that person thought of me.. that person said quite nice things about me really. (Really thanks, it was sweet honestly). Its always refreshing to hear good things about yourself, who doesnt? =).
Anyone who's had a long talk with me would know one trait about me. I always contradict myself on things =) hehehe.... correct? I would say i believe in one thing, yet the next time you see me or talk to me i would say the other thing hahaha. Talking to me is like playing a gamble i guess, you have to analyze and place ur bets on where i really stand and whats really in the deck of cards. Some may say i'm a hypocrite, maybe i am, maybe i'm not. Its a matter of perception and whether i really care about that perception is really something else. Like one of my friend said "If we live on people's perception, life is gonna be difficult". Thats one thing i believe in. Which ironically i told that same person that a lot of things has to do with ppl's perception of you, which in turn i think is true in real life most of the time, but ironically i dont subscribe to and never care about.
Its just that the big question is "Do I Really Care?". I think that determines the relevance of people's perception right? .. It determines a lot of things too, not just that. If you know me even half, you will know where i stand.
I asked that person, "how much do u trust me?". =). To which that person replied, "You're smart enough to know the answer, and you know the answer". Sigh, I have this problem which is people think i'm smart enough to answer, which i dont. But well, hey, i think i'll gamble with this one and i like gambling by the way. I'll take a guess on where I stand after tonite =).
Its been a good night, but i have only 6 more months. Time is so short and limited when you need it. But i'll wait for time, cos waiting is what i do best =).
Also i have one last prayer to make, PLEASE GOD LET ME STRIKE SPORTS TOTO!! I finally thought of wut to buy now. HAHAHA.
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