10 km. ..... half way

I managed to get through to 10 km in a little more than an hour today ..

was good progress as I just started to push myself a week ago but its really tough.... My heart is able to acclimatise but the problem is the knees and thigh muscles .. takes 2 days at least to recover when i hit new distance ...

Hope fully I'll be able to hit 14 km by the end of this week and 18 km the end of next . After that i'll have to let altitude at Mount KK to take care of the rest.

I really respect those who can make it for 42 km full marathon. It doesnt matter how long you take to finish that.. even if you can walk for that far I take my hats off for ya.

.. I might have to crawl the last few KM of the 21 and hope i Finish within 3 hrs ...

Damn....

12 April 2009 - KKB and Kinabalu

Went for the 2nd round of my Kuala Kubu Bharu water rafting trip few weeks back. It was quite a fast one with just less than 3 weeks of asking around and getting people. Managed around 10 people this time which was a nice number for a good 2 raft. Just the right number.

I've went to Kuala Kubu Bharu last October and the water levels were low. It was fun still. However this time the water levels were awesome. For those who didn't go for it this time, they've all just missed one hell of a ride. The 1st Canyon and 3rd Canyons became so much more different from the last time I went. Has can attest to this too as she was with the group that went in October '08. One word sums it all up. Awesome. This trip made me sign up mentally straight away for Sg. Singor when the next one comes around - it was unfortunate that the May '09 trip to singor was full. End of the year will be water rafting and camping at NEPAL if Rizal manages to get it going in September or October. I've practically signed up verbally for it.

Anyway although i didnt get to go Sg. Singor this year, I've managed to sign up for Mount Kinabalu this June. All thanks and hats off to RJ for letting me in on his group due to a pull-out.
Hope I'm lucky and the weather would be a good one for a climb all the way up to the top. Now I just have to scavenge and borrow for winter clothing. Anyone can spare please let me know :)
Just paid for the flight tickets to KK and now the only thing left is to submit my leave applications on Monday.

16 March 2009

I feel quite comfortable knowing that no one comes to my blog to read. I can write calmer in this way maybe though I feel that I do not have much to share anyway.

I believe that what they say is true. The more you earn the more wants that you think you need and the more what your drawing down every month does not seem enough..

I've more or less decided that Bangkok would be the place I would like to visit this year though I have yet to make any plans to book any tickets or accomodation. I think that since I'm going to be going alone I can just hop on the next plane out of there the month itself that I would be having my compulsory week-long leave , though it might be a bit expensive to do that. But anyway it should be ok. I shouldn't start to plan until someone tells me they aren't following anyway. So i'll just wait for a while and do some researching for the moment.

I need a camera and a travel bag. I am not sure if I should buy them or just borrow them from people as this isn't like the start of a for-certain-more-to-come-adventurous-future for me. Though I hope it would, sometimes it isnt wise to spend too much preparing for a hobby that is expensive. I still have quite some nagging problems that I can only settle by July, thats eating a bit on my money, but my situation is definitely better than the past 1 and a half years.

I'm quite eager for this month end's trip to KKB to happen soon. I look forward to experiencing the place with higher water levels. My first time there was nice but nothing spectacular cos the levels were quite low due to sudden dry weather. Finger's crossed that this time would be better.

I still remember a someone who told me before that blogging is kind of stupid, telling ppl how you feel and all. But I think its quite therapeutic to do this, and its harmless. You don't eat up people's time and people who read tend to listen. The downside is of course, you don't get to choose your listeners. But mine is ok. Its deserted enough for me to feel very comfortable.

7th March 2009

Its 2009 March already.. a quarter of the year. So damn fast..

Work has been going fine at the moment and I've been quite lucky. Just wondering how long the luck would last.

The past 3 months have been quite a difficult time with many things to think about. Outside of work life has just been.. stagnant .. maybe to the point of going backwards a bit.

I guess sometimes when i look around .. the people who know me the most and understand me turns out to be those who i know relatively most recently. I cant help but have the feeling that only a handful of those who I've know since school days actually understand me...

Maybe I changed.. or maybe I didn't change and became stagnant. Or maybe everybody just has their own worries and problems and we just shut ourselves off from trying to know people. Just trying to find someone to release all our problems into and just hope they would listen and we dont have to listen back.

Or maybe I am just quite such a boring person that out of work I don't have anything to look forward to - no outings, no activities, no trips - just simply because I cant find anyone to agree to do anything with.

I sometimes try too hard to help people's lives (non-family) who I feel that I care about - maybe they just don't need it or don't want it. Maybe I'm just trying too hard about it. In the end maybe what someone said was true, that it can only hurt myself.

I guess life is to be lived for myself at the moment. I'm gonna just try to live for myself until someone wants to live for me I guess. I'm just so very tired. I just want to live for myself now that I have some small means for doing so.

I realize more and more that its just not worth it to be nice to people who take you for granted when you are nice to them. Its just ironic that the majority of your friends, the people who value your friendship the most, are the ones that you get to know so recently. Or maybe my life is just that sad and the problem is with me and not others. I don't know. I just want to live and breath for myself now.

Gonna register for the wall climbing package I've always said I would do... Gonna get my passport made and pick a place to back pack alone, to hell with whether anyone is interested in following or not. My life is not to be wasted to wallow at loneliness.

I take solace in knowing that I still have people who know who I am and how I am other than just my name, where i come from and superficial things. I take solace in knowing that they know the kind of person I really am and cherish what we do and how we understand each other and how our every conversation and outing makes us understand and share each other's problems and joys and success and failures better. To the people who know me like that and in which I am priviledged to know them for their stories, I feel it is the most satisfying of all.

Its the feeling of being true.

6th July 2008 ... one year absence

Hi... I dont think anyone comes here anymore :P. Last time was i think when RJ and Has stumbled to this place through God knows wut links and read my blog. Among my frens from tcb i think both of them are the only ones to have read this blog and posts haha..

My last post was more than a year ago i think (didnt really go and check the date la ok? hit me haha) so today on a Sunday morning which I have nothing nothing to do and feeling a bit GNF ( I think you buggers, especially u Lemak would know wat it means) I decided to revisit this place and clean it up...

I deleted all my ignorant, immature, stupid, idiotic blue-balled comments on topics such as politics,etc and just left those that are about my own thoughts on life and funny things. Who gives a shit what i write on "mature" topics anyway :P. You can get most of it on newspapers and other better written political and economic blogs also.

I dont know if I will continue to write. Dont think so also la unless i got some funny story to share.. but no one comes here anyways adi also i think. ...

I re-read some of my posts though and I seriously couldnt believe it was me writing those things ... and most of the time at 3 to 5 am in the morning afte Mahjong haha (I FUCKING MISS MAHJONG!!!)

The iPhone.. @ Macworld

The line was very stable around 5 in the morning so I decided to stream some videos to watch and I thought I would go look for some trailers at Apple.com. But instead i stumbled upon Steve Job's keynote address earlier this year at Macworld and proceeded to stream it.

and my God was the presentation exciting.... it made me want to own an iPhone instantly, though i dont think i would be able to afford one and also because it wont reach Asia until 2008, by which millions would have already owned one.

My limited intelligence noticed 2 very obvious things from the keynote. One was definitely that the iPhone is really cool.

The second point is, Steve Job's is really one uber marketing man. He could sell u a kitchen sink and still make it look like its the most revolutionary and amazing thing to ever happen since ur mother started to cook. Although it helps to have wonderfully designed products, but the guy really can sell stuff. You would suck each and everyword he says. Just look at the keynote address for yourself.

They should show his presentations in Marketing class. Definite.

Major Overhaul...

It's been quite some time, and I've been procastinating (is that how its spelt??) for quite some time now to embark on an overhaul of my page. Well its nothing new, just a change of colour, fonts and templates.

Well, maybe this time I'll change the contents a bit, maybe a bit darker, harsher, more critique. Of course i know that some opinions, like mine may not matter but, hey its just like us normally chating, crapping about life, situations and criticising people while having a drink at 'siang malam' or any road site stall. Its just doing it on cyberspace.

It've been wanting to have a place to air my greivances for some time now. Been talking to Weihan to create a new place but guess we both have been busy or for some reason it didnt take off. So I decided why make a new one when I can use this. Even better I'll use my real name instead of a pseydonym or something like that.

Well maybe I'll be able to finish the overhaul and come up with the first post this weekend. In the mean time I have to update the links list. Found a lot of interesting sites these past few days.

Moon Cake Festival at Carpenter Street

These are pictures taken at Carpenter Street, Kuching during the eve of the Moon Cake Festival. All the pictures were taken with my handphone, hence the low quality (wish i had a DSLR... keep that in mind for my birthday present) and were resized to fit the blog. If not it would have taken some serious download times. If you want the full size pics, just drop me a message.

There was a small orchestra playing some classical chinese music there, and it was nice. At one time they even played the "Wong Fei Hung" theme =). It made me reminiscence of the days we used to play the song for the Scouts Band in school. But of course we played with bagpipes and side drums and bugles instead.

Alrite, if you guys (or girls.. ahem) out there wanna know about the girl above, it will cost you RM 10 for each question. Hahaha.. Just joking. You know i'm a sucker for cashing in on stuff like this. Actually she's a friend, who's a year junior and her name is Chelsea. This was a candid pic. But if u still wanna know more about her, remember,
RM 10 hahaha.

Above, Patricia, a coursemate of mine. By the way boys, she's taken, got a bf adi in kl, so go back to bed.

A shot of the street. Notice the silly girl trying to dance in the lower left of the pic?

Another shot of the street...

And another....

And another...

The archway. Entrance to Carpenter Street.

I failed miserably.. HAHAHA

It was the last class of the semester before the study breaks. Coincidentally, today's class was also the type of subject that I am poorest at and least interested in. ANyway, I did not collect my mid-term exam paper last week when everone else got it from the lecturer, so I collected it this week. And, to cut a long story short, I lived up to my own expectations :). I failed the paper miserably ahahha!!!
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Okay I understand some of you may be having question marks all over your heads or a crow just flew over the screen, but before you start calling me crazy or anything, let me tell you that i really expected myself to fail. I got 8 points out of a possible 30 hahahaha!!!. I honestly smiled and laughed my way out of the class. Well, why did I act like that you may ask??
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To be honest, in hindsight, I am feeling scared because even if i add up my assignment and presentation marks, its very clear that with my carry marks, I have yet to pass. I'm seriously scared that I would fail. But on the other hand, I smiled and was walking with a bit of a skip in my steps because... in the end I can fail. I proved those that did not believe that I can fail wrong, and I showed that my luck does run out. I've always said that I'm just normal and I am. Though it's scary that I have yet to pass the exam. Imagine, i've got only 8 out of a possible 30 marks for my mid-term, there's no guarantee that wont happen again in the finals.
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IF THAT HAPPENS IT MEANS I HAVE TO EXTEND MY STUDIES FOR A SEMESTER! ahhhhh!!!.... thats SCARY!!
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But yet, in the end, I'm still smiling =)

Just a teaser.. nothing special..

Well its been quite some time since i've posted anything. There are 2 reasons for that. ONe is the normal writer's block where i ran out of interesting things in life to write about, well you can't blame me for lacking an adventurous side. I don't have the financial means to pursue such a life you know. Besides, its kinda nice sometimes to just relax and let life pass by. Secondly, i've been busy with my final year thesis. Well, actually, the reason i'm so busy with it is because the deadline is near and i've been slacking off more than i've ever been since i came into university. Yea yea.. i'm to blame for it.

Well, today i'm gonna post something that is very very uninteresting to all of you. Its the list of animes that I would like to watch. I would not list out the animes that I would like to own because the number of titles for that would be infinite. Yea i know i know, not many people can understand my obsession with anime and even more would not understand the choices of animes that i hold in high regard or i'm interested in. To me anime is not just entertainment or for kids. Anime is for me a form of art that is equal to films and books. Hence, that is why i feel agitated most of the time when i hear someone saying that they are 'cartoons'. To me, the term 'cartoons' are degrading to anime. Maybe i'll make a post to decribe the diffences in 'cartoons' and 'anime' by using examples from my little experiences of watching both 'cartoons' and 'anime'. Well, to make it very damn simple, 'cartoons' are mindless animated shows made by US production companies. 'Animes' are an art form depicting a story.

Well, yes, i agree that not all 'cartoons' produced in the US are mindless, but i dont consider them cartoons. I consider them animation, and the last US production of an animation that i deem worth watching ( excluding 3D animation, which are not 'cartoons' too) are the Matrix animation series, and before that 'The Lion King' which are both years apart. SOme of you may ask, wuts the difference between 'The Lion King' and lets say, "Cow and Chicken". Well there are obvious differences and i'll cover it sometime in the future.

Alrite, back to my original intent today. I actually managed to watch Shin Seiki Evangelion ( english translation: Neon Genesis Evangelion) and the End of Evangelion movie a few weeks back after waiting and searching in vain for numerous years. Well, I asked my friend to download the thing because i assured him it was damn worth it. To me it was superbly fucking damn worth it but... unfortunately my friend chastised the show in the end because i guess it wasn't suited to his taste. But wat the heck! I dont care because i loved it. Evangelion is the kind of anime that has the classic you either love/hate thing i guess. You either love it or you dont understand the end and you end up hating it. I of course loved it and its my Third most favourite anime in my list. Unfortunately Evangelion is just one in a long line of animes that I would want to watch.. So.. i'll list out some of the ones that I hope to watch in the near future, though they are arranged in no particular order and the list is by no means exhaustive.

• Super Dimensional Fortress Macross (Yea I saw it when i was a kid, but i wanna watch it again!)
• Rurouni Kenshin - Reminiscence (DO NOT REFER TO IT AS Samurai X!!!)
• Haibane Renmei
• Full Moon wo Sagashite
• Fruits Basket
• Furi Kuri (or alternatively FLCL)
• Kumo no Mukou Yakusoku no Basho (Place Promised in Our Early Days) first priority!!
• Rebuild of Evangelion (NOt yet released, haha. Basically an Evangelion Remake)
• Trigun
• RaXephon
• Vision of Escaflowne

Well the above is not much, because most of the animes that i wanna watch i've been able to watch them for the past 2 years!! HAHAHAHAHAH ... so its trimmed down a lot. But if your talking about the ones i would like to COLLECT!! wooo hooo.. its never ending..