Wonderful isnt it? things can happen, and things cant happen...

Well, today was kinda ok. I lost a lot of money for the past 2 days at the table. It was painful but somehow i think the person up there gives u back something for your money's worth or something more.

I got something worth more than anything I lost. It was a friendship. Haha.. the friendship stayed and I hope it would stay and improve. Had a talk with that person today,.. a very long talk. I think it was more of me bothering that person. =) I knew that person was tired and sleepy and annoyed at me but the annoying person in me kept just sitting there. ( Sorry ya if your reading this ).. Just joking, i actually enjoyed being in that person's company. SOrry, i'm a sucker, i know.

Well, i did ask that person a few things about what that person thought of me.. that person said quite nice things about me really. (Really thanks, it was sweet honestly). Its always refreshing to hear good things about yourself, who doesnt? =).

Anyone who's had a long talk with me would know one trait about me. I always contradict myself on things =) hehehe.... correct? I would say i believe in one thing, yet the next time you see me or talk to me i would say the other thing hahaha. Talking to me is like playing a gamble i guess, you have to analyze and place ur bets on where i really stand and whats really in the deck of cards. Some may say i'm a hypocrite, maybe i am, maybe i'm not. Its a matter of perception and whether i really care about that perception is really something else. Like one of my friend said "If we live on people's perception, life is gonna be difficult". Thats one thing i believe in. Which ironically i told that same person that a lot of things has to do with ppl's perception of you, which in turn i think is true in real life most of the time, but ironically i dont subscribe to and never care about.

Its just that the big question is "Do I Really Care?". I think that determines the relevance of people's perception right? .. It determines a lot of things too, not just that. If you know me even half, you will know where i stand.

I asked that person, "how much do u trust me?". =). To which that person replied, "You're smart enough to know the answer, and you know the answer". Sigh, I have this problem which is people think i'm smart enough to answer, which i dont. But well, hey, i think i'll gamble with this one and i like gambling by the way. I'll take a guess on where I stand after tonite =).

Its been a good night, but i have only 6 more months. Time is so short and limited when you need it. But i'll wait for time, cos waiting is what i do best =).

Also i have one last prayer to make, PLEASE GOD LET ME STRIKE SPORTS TOTO!! I finally thought of wut to buy now. HAHAHA.

I'm back to bloggin i guess

Well.. i'm back to blogging i guess after a hiatus of a few months... =)
maybe i'll start regular blogging like wat weihan tells me to.

Hmm.. just a short update for u guys. Wut i have been up to these 2 months i've been back at kuching

1. Bought a new handphone.

Those of you who still remember, i once asked about wut i should get. Well, in the end i thought "what the heck, every semester i've not been able to keep any of my PTPTN money, so why dont i just fucking get something"

So here i have a new handphone the first day i got the loan money - the same day i had a big bashing from my mother cos i spent half of it on one small thing. The pain.

And sometimes i kinda regret it cos i dont come from a well to do family. THose of u who know me would know my status =)

BUt whenever i listen to songs using the phone, i feel that i made a good deal and the regret goes away. =)There was once i told my friend i dont regret buyin it. Then he said to me "Of course, when we buy phones like wat we have (he has a good phone too), we wont regret it cos of wat it can do". To which i replied, "I agree, it sure is wonderful to keep you company when ur lonely"... he looked at me with three black stripes on his forehead of course, because he was referring to the functions, not the value it brings to u when ur lonely - like how i saw it haha. =)

Since i was a kid i've always wanted a Sony Walkman, not an aiwa, not a sanyo or anything like that. It was an original SONY Walkman! then i wanted a SONY Discman instead. But i never got that because other things came in place of it, a pc, a playstation. But nonetheless the urge was still there. Finally when i'm 22 i got one, though its painful now cos i gotta eat bread kekeke.

Well, silly me, i havent introduced my phone.

It's a Sony Ericsson W810i Walkman Phone, my new wife which is just a month old.

2. Had another stupid classic silly act

Well as with me, i've always had one silly act every 3 years. Shooting myself when i know i'm gonna shoot at myself with the gun. This is the third time.

I shot myself a few weeks ago. SOmething nice came back out of it for 2 weeks. But then after that one day i woke up and told myself its not to be and to fuck off again. =) Well.. i'm sufficiently experienced to deal with it this time cos its not much different from the second time. The second time was way more times worse than this one so its ok =)

I dont wanna lose a friend, so i always choose the middle way out =). Typical me. Anyway. I still will keep my promises and vows to that person =). Told ya i wont break it so i wont ok? =) But you wont be reading this i know.


3. Well FInally i will be having another blog on friendster which i will update simultaniously with this one.

Why am i having 2? i dunno .. just for the fun of it i guess. Most who read the Blogger.com one (this one) are you all from tpg. So i guess the friendster one will be accessible to my friends in UNIMAS. Its gonna be up with a post in a few hours i guess

Stay tuned to here and friendster