Rantings and answers. Part 1

The clock on my computer is 5.42 am. Nope, it's not set to U.S Eastern Time. The digital clock is working perfectly.

I'm still sitting in front of my computer and still awake with a cup of coffee and some pastry - definitely not fresh - that I bought from 7 Eleven a while ago.

It has been like that since 2 weeks ago. "What the fuck are you doing?" you may ask. =) I'm asking that question to myself too. It seems that I just cant stop looking for things to read - and unfortunately I dont consider my academic books or journals as reading material- hence, for the past week or so I've been spending the bulk of my time watching anime, reading tons of things on Wikipedia and downloading Neon Genesis Evangelion fan-fictions to read.

I just finished around 70% of what I should prepare for my group presentation this Wednesday, which is just 24 hours away. And I have tons of other stuff to do.. sigh.

1) I have 2 chapters of my Final Year Thesis to finish in a fucking short 96 hours, which I dont have much of fucking idea how to.

2) I promised to help a friend do a first time grammar check on his Final Year Thesis, which I hope I can help with in the limited time frame.

3) I need to finish up some reports to hand up this Friday which is long overdue due to certain circumstances which, I admit, I have been part of the reason and I hope the lecturer doesnt kill me.

4) I need to prepare for the presentation this Wednesday, which is on a fucking morning. I dont know about you guys but most of the time I just hate waking up on mornings.

Sigh.. and I'm having a writer's block for this blog =)

Well.. this time i'll try to write something. As usual this is gonna be boring, cos it's about a boring guy ranting and grumbling. SO BEWARE AND DONT SCROLL DOWN IF U GET BORED EASILY.

1) Being ... Humble...

Ya know, not to say that I'm perasan or wut but... I've been praised and commented a few times by people that I'm humble. Hmm... was talking to a friend (if ur reading, u know who it would be =). Hint: pretty earings - they suit you very well and u look good wearing that outfit.. dont get angry ya? You know me, i'm an Idiot.) outside another friend's house last nite.

She commented on something, i forgot wat it is, that I'm just being humble..She isnt the first one to say that mind you, a few have said it before. Well.. i then explained to her that i'm not actually Maybe its just that I dont have anything to boast about. I'm not an angel or a gentleman entirely.

If i had the looks of another friend and the brains of another one of my friends here, maybe I would be boastful ya know. But i dont have both of it, so maybe that is why i cant boast =).Buy it? or dont buy it?.... Some of you may remember the ME in f1,2 and 3. I was a pretty big boaster at that time wasnt I? Haha.

But seriously.. in the end, if I ever start to boast about myself. PLEASE TAKE A FUCKING BASEBALL BAT AND BASH ME OVER MY FUCKING HEAD WITH IT!! AND THEN SHOVE IT UP MY ASS!!! I AIN'T NEVER WANT ME TO EVER BE BOASTFUL EVER AGAIN!. I HATE IT!!!!

And most important of all... I dont find that there is anything in this world that is worthy to be boasted about. IF you think your handsome, there are thousands who may be more handsome that you are, If your pretty, there maybe thousands who are prettier than you are. If you are smart, there maybe thousands who are smarter than you are. If your humble, there are millions more who are more humble than you are. If your rich, unless you are Bill Gates, you still arent the richest person in the world, and you may wake up a poor man next week. If you have a pretty gf/wife, its for you to take care and pamper her and love her, not show her to the world like a medal. The world is filled with people that are better than I am, and thats what keeps my feet to the ground.

TO all the people who ever praised me, mighty thanks to all of your. Really sincerely =) though i always feel i dont deserve it. But thanks for seeing in me something that i cant see and still refuse to see. May God bless you all!!